Hole in my Soul

There’s a hole in my soul

One heartbreak wide, three decades deep

An empty dark room 

with mirrors on walls

Where I look around and see

Grotesque reflections of me

There’s a hole in my soul

A cave where Fear goes to hide

Dragging its tentacles inside 

Waiting for a trigger

to rear its ugly head

There’s a hole in my soul

A void that can’t be filled 

With words or confessions 

Or promises one would 

Surely fail to keep

Too big for a single person

Too small for a Universe of dreams

There’s a hole in my soul

But never have I ever

In all its hollowness 

Felt incomplete

________________

Zeina El-Hoss

Soil and Soul

He made me from soil

He shaped me with His Hands

So I’d remain humble

So I may remember how much He loves me

So I may never lose sight of who I am

Though a sinner at times, I’m mostly human

He gave me a soul

My soul is but a Breath of His soul

So I’d remain elevated

So I may remember how much I love Him

So I may never lose sight of home

Though I know to Whom I belong, I’m mostly human

 

 

 

Image credit: Ireland-based Polish painter Tomasz Alen Kopera

http://www.mymodernmet.com/profiles/blogs/tomasz-alen-kopera-surreal-paintings

M.O.T.H.E.R.

MOTHER

M is for every “Moment” you cherished for me

O is for every “Obligation” you fulfilled with glee

T is for the “Time” you spent ensuring I’m happy

H is for the “Home” you built on love and mercy

E is for all the “Efforts” I can’t thank you for enough

R is for the “Responsibility” you have taken with love

MOTHER you’re a gift sent from Heaven Above

Aren’t We All?

You say you’re tired

You say you’re confused

You say you’re distressed

And all your energy is consumed

Well, aren’t we all?

You say you’re disappointed

Things didn’t go as planned

You think you’re lonely

No one holds your hand

Well, aren’t we all?

Aren’t we all looking

Aren’t we all searching for

This place called happiness

But is it worth waiting anymore?

Sometimes I wonder

Why there’s delay

Waiting in hope that someday

This chaos rests forever

Perhaps this day is nearer

Perhaps the things we desire

Aren’t really what we need

But will that quench the fire?

All I can say is there’s no way out

But to push away the fear and doubt

And hang on to that silvering ray

On every cloud heavy and grey

Perhaps then what we need

Eventually finds our way

What is Regret?

Regret … is the words 

You can’t take back after they’re said

Regret … is the aftermath

Of a rush of blood to the head

Regret … is all the chances

You didn’t dare to take

Regret … is all the decisions

You were too afraid to make

Regret … is the price you pay

For all your thoughtless mistakes

Regret … is how I feel

Everytime I hear your name

Regret …. is my consciousness regained

And facing your truth again

Regret …so intense it feels like a heartattack

Regret …. is all the tears

That won’t bring my love back

Dryer Lands

Just when your soul is craving some answers, you come across all sorts of signs that lead you back to the place where your heart first found real peace. Today it came in the form of a song I heard by chance. This amazing ballad is sung by British singer Sami Yusuf. Today I’d like to share a video for the first time on my blog. I hope that when you hear this song you’d feel uplifted and empowered. 

For those who don’t know Sami Yusuf,  he is a British singer-songwriter, composer, producer and multi-instrumentalist musician of Iranian Azerbaijani descent, who was born in Tehran, Iran. His real name Siamal Baranjan (Radmanesh).

In 2003, Yusuf released his first album “Al-Mu`allim” at the age of 23. He released his second album “My Ummah” in 2005. In October 2010, Yusuf’s third official album “Wherever You Are” was launched. Sami calls his genre of music “Spiritique”. “Salaam” is his fourth album, that was released on 22 December 2012. On 12 September 2014, Yusuf’s fifth official album “The Center” was released. In January 2015, Sami Yusuf’s sixth official album “Songs of the Way” was released.

Believing that music can be a “powerful medium to promote ideas and establish dialogue within society”, he coalesced Eastern percussive instrumentation and Western melodies in “Al-Mu’allim” with a focus on the English and Arabic languages. His song “Supplication” was used in the Golden-Globe award-nominated film, “The Kite Runner”. Though the album was described as a “project to define British Muslim identity” in a post 9-11 period — with explicitly religious themes praising the Prophet Mohammad and God in songs like “The Creator” and “Ya Mustafa” — it reached the ears of unexpectedly diverse range of listeners, constituting of various nationalities, ages, and races.  Many more successful albums and singles followed since. 

Source: Wikipedia

In this track “Dryer Land” from his fourth album “Salaam” (Peace) he collaborates with father Babak Radmanesh to present a soulful heartfelt song about repentence and seeking refuge in God. The song has English and Persian (Farsi) lyrics which you’ll find in the Youtube video’s description box.

I hope you enjoy these moving lyrics as much I did. Have an empowering day 💪🏻

Blood

There’s blood on the pavements

Blood on the streets

Hot blood splattered 

On autumn-chilled concrete

Blood on faces

You thought you’d never meet

Until one day they’re famous

Not for any special feat

But for being survivors

Of a heinous deed

An orphaned child, a corpse with no identity

A widowed mother, a torn family

What will it take 

To save a grieving country?

Will this state of mourning

Ever cease?

Blood has become a familiar scene

On every news on every screen

Whether you’re going about your way

Or you sell your soul to a political party

Martyrdom is an unescapable collective destiny

One day you’re alive, the next you’re some casualty

Blood is cheap, or so it seems 

Villains claim responsibility 

For their bloodshed games

But the crimes go unpunished

And are merely shamed

There’s blood on hands

We never get to see

Blood stains on our nation’s fabric 

Weaved with sectarian hostility

It’s beyond comprehension

How we never learn from history

Perhaps a half-ton of TNT 

Is enough spark to ignite our short-lived unity

Perhaps the sight of gushing blood

Would break the silence of our complacency 

Not long before we go back to our comfortably numbing routine

A Real Parent

I am a real parent

And by real I don’t mean

I’m a perfect know-it-all

Whose got everything under control

I am a real parent 

Because I’m the parent 

Who doesn’t hide her shortcomings

And is not ashamed of her failures 

And, boy, are they many

Somedays I’m bulletproof 

Somedays I hit the roof

I always wonder where I’ve gone wrong

I question the little voice inside that tells me what to do

Sometimes I go through the day

Without even realizing 

That I barely prayed for my little ones

I am a real parent

And by real I mean 

That I’m human 

Not that model with her babies

On a magazine cover

Whose flat-tire belly has been photo-tucked 

Whose skin’s flawless

And brows neatly plucked

I’m none of those

Because I chose

To be a real parent

Dark-circles and all

I am a real parent

And by real I mean

I cry at night when no one sees

And wake up the next day stronger than I can be

I am a real parent 

And you’d better beware

I watch out for my children

Like a wolf watching for hers

I’m always weaving plans

To get better at this parenting game

And I know I can

Into the Sunrise

We all have always stories

We don’t tell

We all have feelings we don’t share

There are parts of us

That don’t show so well

But this secrecy is the cross we bare

All our lives we’re taught

To stay away from fights

We’re warned to escape

The very first ray of light

But we’re lured to the sun

Like a moth to a flame

And there’s really no use

To turn the other way

Or surrender to shame

All my life I knew

I had something to give

Every word I write is

A reason to live

And though some parts of my soul

Still don’t clearly show

They’re bound to shine through

That’s what I surely know

Oneday I’ll stand in the sun

And let its rays surround me

And finally embrace

The happiness that just found me

I’ll walk right through the walls

And break through the dark

Like some Supernatural being

That’s the faith inside my heart

Stronger than This

Sadness has no beginning and no end

Heartbreaks come and go but souls do mend

You have to believe it deep inside

All this pain you’re feeling will subside

Tomorrow is coming so rest assured

Tomorrow holds the answer, has your cure

Patience is bittersweet, but you can wait, my friend

I know that you feel like your world is falling apart

And you’re so lost and hurt you don’t know how or where to start

Life gets turbulent but I’m sure you’re tough

Remember: you’re truly loved and you’re enough

Don’t let anybody tell you otherwise

Take a good at yourself and you’ll realize

You’ve been through much tougher times than this

And somehow built resilience and found bliss

No, this is not your joy coming to an end

You might seem broken now, but it’s just a bend

You’ll stand on your feet

And life will be sweet…

Again…my strong friend