What Depression Feels Like

A heaviness in your chest

A bloodless rupture in your heart

A lump in your throat

It’s like someone’s tearing your soul apart

A weariness in your body

And a loss of precious sleep

A gushing in your eyes 

When there’s no reason to weep

A nostalgic look at the past

An unexplained fear of what’s to be

A detachment from the present

In which you live with melancholy

Anger, worry, sadness, isolation

Alientation, withdrawal, anxiety

You shut the world off in fear

Of being found out suffering

Even the things you loved the most

Your hobbies and pastimes 

No longer give you smiles 

To cope with the hard times 

No drug can lift this cloud off

And bring sunshine to your life

And though your beliefs and faith

Come between you and the knife

You wish things had some meaning

And your purpose would come to aid

But your fatigue is overwhelming

That you can no longer think straight

It almost feels like drowning

With no water around

It almost feels like screaming

But no one hears a sound

Depression is silent, dark and dreary

Depression is a stigma

(Perhaps that’s why no one hears me?)

People talk about the monsters 

Lying under your bed

Or the ogres in your closet

Or the demons in your head

But no one comforts you with reassurance

That “they’ve been there” instead

You’re dull when you’re tired

You’re unbearable when blue

No one likes to see the dark

Side of the moon

But somehow it wears off

With a little help you seek

Because, after all, we’re humans

And humans are made weak

Don’t be ashamed of those feelings

Don’t assume you’re wrong

When you need to unload burdens

You’ve been carrying for too long

There’s always someone to confide in

When you can’t do things on your own
And always, always remember 

No one goes through this alone

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Author: Zeina

I'm a Lebanese translation and editing professional. Juggling parenthood and a home-based freelance career is no easy task, especially for a (hopefully recovering) perfectionist. I'm also an introvert, so yes this explains the tagline "I write better than I speak" :) Hope you enjoy your stay here!

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